My Belated First Post

I won't go too much into what I've eaten or done this week because it hasn't been the week for healthy eating. Two things did happen that reminded me of why I want to get back in shape and stay back in shape so badly.

1) The first night we were in PA dinner was a thrown together ordeal of whatever was in my uncle's refrigerator because even going out to eat or ordering take out seemed too exhausting. My grandfather was an avid gardener and when he passed away five years ago my uncle took over maintenance of the garden. Along with the frozen mac n cheese I ate because it is and always will be the greatest comfort food invented I had a salad made with fresh vegetables from the garden. It's been a long time since I've had peppers, cucumbers or onions that tasted so amazing. I like eating vegetables but it's rare that I love eating them or prefer them to the less healthy fare on my plate. These vegetables and their bold flavors and fresh smells filled me with more comfort than the mac n cheese could ever hope to. Veggies are awesome and I might just write that on a piece of paper and stick it on my fridge.

2) Going through my grandmother's old photos I found several from my 18th birthday. That was my thin period and I was shocked at how good I looked. My body was fit, my hair looked amazing and there was a clearness to my skin. I then found pictures from when I was 24 which was my seriously overweight, depressed year. If my mother hadn't stopped me I would have torn every single one up right then because I don't want anyone to remember me like that.

I'm in the middle of those two periods right now and heading downwards towards my 18 weight but I could be going faster and making less trips back up towards my 24 weight.

I stress eat. I get overwhelmed by changes in my schedule and forget to work out. I skip meals and get so hungry I eat huge ones. I love soda and Mochas from Starbucks. I drink beer and wine and don't remember until later that they have calories in them. I love chocolate more than anything.

My Getting Started Goals are:

- Eat breakfast. Cereal, fruit, yogurt if I can make myself choke it down. Plain ol coffee, hold the mocha and the soy milk.

- Eat a fruit or veggie every day. I'm at almost every day but on the days I don't always feel worse.

- Develop a work out regime that I stay constant with. As I just found out I have ZERO hours at work this week it'll be a good week to get back on that. I love my treadmill and the hiking trail by my house but I've yet to find a strength training workout I like as much as my cardio ones.

- Balancing being a Baking/Pastry student with eating real, solid meals every day.

- Eat healthy even when I'm out. I tend to never order healthy things at restaurants even if there's a healthy choice on the menu that looks really good.